Lives Lemonade

Its been a while since I last posted but a lot have been going on. I have been dealing with a divorce and now I am busy trying to get it all finished up so I can settle down and marry the love of my life. We met back early this year and it was love at first sight. He is someone i can be myself with and he makes very happy. We have our ups and downs but always come out on top. Getting my life back on track has been hard but it is something I have worked out more then any one will every know.

Other then a new boyfriend and losing my husband, i also lost custody of one of kids to his father. My oldest son deiced that he wanted to live with his daddy instead of me. That have been one of the hardest things for me to deal with because is feels like a part of me is miss now and I know how what to think. He tells me it ain't because he loves me less just he feel it is better for him to be with his daddy. And yes he is right just makes me realize how smart my 9 year really is. Every day he amazes me in some new way.

But life is good with me, my boyfriend, and my youngest son. I get to spend a lot of time with my 8 year which he loves more then anything because he has always been a big momma's boy. He says it is like his is a only child now that his brother lives with daddy. Both my boys are so smart, I wonder all the time how i got so lucky to have been blessed with two very smart little boys.

Lives Lemonade

Its been a while since I last posted but a lot have been going on. I have been dealing with a divorce and now I am busy trying to get it all finished up so I can settle down and marry the love of my life. We met back early this year and it was love at first sight. He is someone i can be myself with and he makes very happy. We have our ups and downs but always come out on top. Getting my life back on track has been hard but it is something I have worked out more then any one will every know.

Other then a new boyfriend and losing my husband, i also lost custody of one of kids to his father. My oldest son deiced that he wanted to live with his daddy instead of me. That have been one of the hardest things for me to deal with because is feels like a part of me is miss now and I know how what to think. He tells me it ain't because he loves me less just he feel it is better for him to be with his daddy. And yes he is right just makes me realize how smart my 9 year really is. Every day he amazes me in some new way.

But life is good with me, my boyfriend, and my youngest son. I get to spend a lot of time with my 8 year which he loves more then anything because he has always been a big momma's boy. He says it is like his is a only child now that his brother lives with daddy. Both my boys are so smart, I wonder all the time how i got so lucky to have been blessed with two very smart little boys.

Lies

Your words broke my heart in two

They took my heart like a bet

Because with all the things

That we have went through

I have so many regrets.

To lose our love was it worth it

Although at time

I may seem unsure

You loved seemed to make me happy

But yet I felt so insecure.

We always said it was forever

And it would never be a good-bye

I always said that we could

Make to the end of every mile

That I would never give up on us

But this time my heart couldn’t mend.

All this hurts it seems to cut me deep

But I wonder did it hurt you

After everything was said and done

You still only told me lies

So I had to say that we were through.

I gave you all I had

And I tried to make you see

I wanted our love to last

But memories are all that left

Of all the time we had in the past.

Now it’s my time to shine

I’m moving on without you

With all the pain and hurt

That kills me slowly inside

I’m trying to forget our life

And it gets easier day by day

All I have to do it remind myself

That our love was nothing but a lie.