Lies

Your words broke my heart in two

They took my heart like a bet

Because with all the things

That we have went through

I have so many regrets.

To lose our love was it worth it

Although at time

I may seem unsure

You loved seemed to make me happy

But yet I felt so insecure.

We always said it was forever

And it would never be a good-bye

I always said that we could

Make to the end of every mile

That I would never give up on us

But this time my heart couldn’t mend.

All this hurts it seems to cut me deep

But I wonder did it hurt you

After everything was said and done

You still only told me lies

So I had to say that we were through.

I gave you all I had

And I tried to make you see

I wanted our love to last

But memories are all that left

Of all the time we had in the past.

Now it’s my time to shine

I’m moving on without you

With all the pain and hurt

That kills me slowly inside

I’m trying to forget our life

And it gets easier day by day

All I have to do it remind myself

That our love was nothing but a lie.

Unspoken

Words are just words

But mean nothing if unspoken.

Words are just words

If there is no meaning behind

Words are spoken

But yet feel so empty

Words come out

But yet you seem distance

Words are just words

But your words are lies

And lies are lies.

Your words have only

Done nothing but hurt

And your word is just a lie

Never no meaning behind them

Never no feeling to embrace

But the hurt that can be traced

Words are lies to me

Lies hurt no matter what

Words are just words

But mean nothing if unspoken.

Incomplete

You’re the thought that starts each day

You’re the thought that end my day as well

Every time I hear your name

I seem to be in a different place

A place of love and passion

A place of joy and happiness

Not a day goes by that I don’t

Think of you and our special place.

As the days pass me by

Little things make me think of you

You seem to be in everything

I see and do

I pretend I don’t love you

I pretend I don’t care

But I only know the truth

And it in the place we share.

Not a day goes by that

Your face I don’t see

Not a day goes by that

I don’t long to hear your voice

Not a day goes by that

I don’t miss your loving embrace

Not a day goes by that

My life seem to be incomplete with you.

Until There Was You

Until there was you…

I walked this world alone.

No ones hand to hold in mine,

my heart was all my own.

Until there was you…

True love was just a dream.

Dreams of wonders and tears,

dreams of hopes and fears.

Until there was you…

My life had no direction.

A road of uncertainty,

but now we have a journey together, just me and you.

So I thank my lucky stars and

God from heaven alone.

If not for heaven then my heart

could not feel the impact of true love.

Until There Was You!!!!

True Love

I carry your heart with me,

I carry it in my heart

and I'm never without it.

anywhere I go, you go, my dear.

and whatever is done, by only me,

is your doing, my darling.

I fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.

I want no world for beautiful,

you are my world my true.

it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,

and whatever a sun will always sing is you.

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the branch of the tree called life

which grows higher and higher than t

he soul can hope or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart,

I carry it in my heart.

I don't know what it is about you that closes and opens, only something in me understands

the voice in your eyes is deeper than all roses."

Behind Those Green Eyes

I trusted you

With my heart

But little did I know

The person behind them green eyes

Would rip away my soul.

Those green eyes

I always knew and loved

Soon turned to Satin’s red

As they watched my world

Come crashing down.

The person behind those green eyes

Was not the man I once loved

But a man that left

Me broken and feeling dead

From all the heartache and tears

Those green eyes

Left me without a sound

Those green eyes

Haunt my life now

Those green eyes

Are forever apart of me.

Time To Get My Blog Running Again....

It's been a while since I was on here and I have a lot of down time now so I thought why not get my blog back up and running.

This post is going to be short but here is the what has been going on in my life since my last post.

I currently in the middle of a divorce which is no fun at all because I really thought nothing would break me and him up but guess I was fooled. He has moved back to Memphis where he not lives with his girlfriend and they are raising my kids right now. I was left in a really bad place after he left me and I am not having the best of luck bouncing back from it. So I asked him to take the kids until I was stable enough to have them back home.

Good news I finally finished school and now have my degree. The bad news it I can't find a job in my field to save my life. Every where I apply has one excuse or another of why I can't be hired. It is starting to get old that there are so many unemployed people out here and these businesses what to be so picky about the people they hire. I call bullshit on the whole thing to be honest.

Other then that my life is going and I am making it day by day.