Monday, December 14, 2015


Your words broke my heart in two
They took my heart like a bet
Because with all the things
That we have went through
I have so many regrets.
To lose our love was it worth it
Although at time
I may seem unsure
You loved seemed to make me happy
But yet I felt so insecure.
We always said it was forever
And it would never be a good-bye
I always said that we could
Make to the end of every mile
That I would never give up on us
But this time my heart couldn’t mend.
All this hurts it seems to cut me deep
But I wonder did it hurt you
After everything was said and done
You still only told me lies
So I had to say that we were through.
I gave you all I had
And I tried to make you see
I wanted our love to last
But memories are all that left
Of all the time we had in the past.
Now it’s my time to shine
I’m moving on without you
With all the pain and hurt
That kills me slowly inside
I’m trying to forget our life
And it gets easier day by day
All I have to do it remind myself
That our love was nothing but a lie.


Sunday, December 13, 2015


Words are just words
But mean nothing if unspoken.
Words are just words
If there is no meaning behind
Words are spoken
But yet feel so empty
Words come out
But yet you seem distance
Words are just words
But your words are lies
And lies are lies.
Your words have only
Done nothing but hurt
And your word is just a lie
Never no meaning behind them
Never no feeling to embrace
But the hurt that can be traced
Words are lies to me
Lies hurt no matter what
Words are just words
But mean nothing if unspoken.



You’re the thought that starts each day
You’re the thought that end my day as well
Every time I hear your name
I seem to be in a different place
A place of love and passion
A place of joy and happiness
Not a day goes by that I don’t
Think of you and our special place.

As the days pass me by
Little things make me think of you
You seem to be in everything
I see and do
I pretend I don’t love you
I pretend I don’t care
But I only know the truth
And it in the place we share.

Not a day goes by that
Your face I don’t see
Not a day goes by that
I don’t long to hear your voice
Not a day goes by that
I don’t miss your loving embrace
Not a day goes by that
My life seem to be incomplete with you.


Until There Was You

Until there was you…
I walked this world alone.
No ones hand to hold in mine,
my heart was all my own.
Until there was you…
True love was just a dream.
Dreams of wonders and tears,
dreams of hopes and fears.
Until there was you…
My life had no direction.
A road of uncertainty,
but now we have a journey together, just me and you.
So I thank my lucky stars and
God from heaven alone.
If not for heaven then my heart
could not feel the impact of true love.
Until There Was You!!!!


True Love

I carry your heart with me,
I carry it in my heart
and I'm never without it.
anywhere I go, you go, my dear.
and whatever is done, by only me,
is your doing, my darling.
I fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.
I want no world for beautiful,
you are my world my true.
it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the branch of the tree called life
which grows higher and higher than t
he soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart,
I carry it in my heart.

I don't know what it is about you that closes and opens, only something in me understands
the voice in your eyes is deeper than all roses."

Behind Those Green Eyes

I trusted you
With my heart
But little did I know
The person behind them green eyes
Would rip away my soul.
Those green eyes
I always knew and loved
Soon turned to Satin’s red
As they watched my world
Come crashing down.
The person behind those green eyes
Was not the man I once loved
But a man that left
Me broken and feeling dead
From all the heartache and tears
Those green eyes
Left me without a sound
Those green eyes
Haunt my life now
Those green eyes
Are forever apart of me.


Thursday, December 10, 2015

Time To Get My Blog Running Again....

It's been a while since I was on here and I have a lot of down time now so I thought why not get my blog back up and running.

This post is going to be short but here is the what has been going on in my life since my last post.

I currently in the middle of a divorce which is no fun at all because I really thought nothing would break me and him up but guess I was fooled. He has moved back to Memphis where he not lives with his girlfriend and they are raising my kids right now. I was left in a really bad place after he left me and I am not having the best of luck bouncing back from it. So I asked him to take the kids until I was stable enough to have them back home.

Good news I finally finished school and now have my degree. The bad news it I can't find a job in my field to save my life. Every where I apply has one excuse or another of why I can't be hired. It is starting to get old that there are so many unemployed people out here and these businesses what to be so picky about the people they hire. I call bullshit on the whole thing to be honest.

Other then that my life is going and I am making it day by day.